Saturday, September 30, 2006
Birthday greetings are such a tangible way of gauging if you still remain relevant in other people's hectic schedules for them to remember :)
Ohwell, the first day of the rest of my life this decade of the big 2 of change. Time to end a flirtatious relationship with Naivete and part ways with sweet Childhood..time to immerse into the era of slogging and erm, more slogging.
Thanks for the wishes everyone :)
a new
horizon
8:38 am
Saturday, September 16, 2006
I was flipping thru the papers one day, when I finally found that very word to aptly describe myself!
now all i have to do is to grow unkempt long hair and attach a pair of braces to my teeth, and i can have millions of girls pandering after me.
a new
horizon
1:09 am
Friday, September 08, 2006
When your journey ends, the recollection begins..and at the end of every journey, lies yet another plain of choices. its all going to end in 1 month's time, all the mindless physical activity and over-hyped national patriotism. i'm pretty sure my brain's rotted to no end, but these 2 years have been a lesson in endurance that's hard to forget. where else, could you learn which things in life you value the most, and where else, could you learn societal skills in an experimental setup? as much as i hate to say it..perhaps NS did help me out in one way or another.
reminisce to 2 years ago..those were the days of the dreamer. who cared a thing about what happened in the world, when you were together with the person you loved? nothing could hurt, for all the sensitivities were amassed into a central point, one which lay not within yourself, but in that of your loved. the dreamer was invincible in his own world, but sadly inadequate in reality. the dreams were sweet, but one day, the dream would end..
rewind to the pickup 1.5 years ago, when shattered dreams littered the halls of memory. everything was warped into a nightmare, with reality never being able to live up to expectations. the pain came thousandfold when the foundations of life came crashing down all around..but NS life came to the rescue; routine drilling and sheer fatigue were the main facets that prevented an abyssal horrorshow. the true value of friends surfaced in such times of gloom, for many became precious listening ears to an ailing heart.
backtrack to the posting 1 year ago, when recovery just started, and a new life began in MINDEF. the numbing of senses soon begun, as politics started affecting the routines of life. No longer were there boring drills and plain rehearsals; the workplace became a teeming arena of backstabbing bastards, and every second was an opportunity to sink a proverbial blade down your neighbour's neck. nobody was safe, and that brought about a new era of self-preservation. there could no longer be broodings over the past relationship; life was so terrible, that days were spent bitching about the regulars and superiors at large. the numbing set in, and soon after, the memories faded.
timeshift to the present. its nice to see your past laid out barren in front of your eyes, dissected in every aspect, open for your very scrutiny. gone were the negative emotions that plagued aeons ago, the jealousy, the regret, even the loss. i guess its kind of true..that time really does heal wounds. i'm fine now, and i'm still fine as i've continuously, endlessly extolled throughout my posts here in these two years. it feels really good, to be able to see your past's pictures without feeling any remorse, or even pangs of guilt or anger at yourself. the tie is severed, and the chaos has been subdued. for once, the demon within has been vanquished.
this marks the beginning of an end of 2 years of horrifying youth.
a new
horizon
5:35 pm