Thursday, February 16, 2006

A quick V-day review..

I cried, when I couldn't make her smile.
I cried, when she got angry with me.
I cried, when there were things I couldn't tell her.
I cried, as an answer when she asked how I would react if she broke up with me.
I cried, as never before, when I watched romance movies with her.
I cried, when she did.
I cried, when she told me it was over.
I cried, when I heard she was going out with another guy.
I cried, and cried, and cried.

Love's made me weak..

I will not be weak ever again.

a new horizon 6:11 pm

Monday, February 13, 2006

Valentine's Day..here again.

I'll be mounting 24hour duty, and I guess it'll be a better situation to be in, as opposed to being alone back at home. Things can just pop up when you're at home alone.

Last year we were still happily celebrating back at Great World City..

I wonder how she is now. What she'll be doing tomorrow, although the answer is definitely beyond obvious to a normal person. I wonder how close she'll be with her partner..how happy she is now being with him.

I'm just curious...about why I'm so curious about her. Why it still lives as this amorphous being hidden in my mind, awaiting for the correct moment, the proper provocation to burgeon into the subconscious. Is it just that I'm sore about losing her to another guy? Or maybe I just miss being in a relationship? Or is it, romantically, that I still like her despite how much I try to assure myself that she's no more my love? Am I just possessively holding on to her, not unlike a scenario of sour grapes?

I don't like the answer..neither do I like how I'm turning out.

a new horizon 7:32 pm

Saturday, February 04, 2006

What I wish..

wish I had the strength to pursue what I want to do.
wish I had the luck to achieve the goals I've set.
wish I had the support to help me get there.
wish I had the brains to be accepted to where I want to go.

and how i wish i don't worry so much about the future..

a new horizon 11:57 am